[ Had he not made it more than obvious he wanted to be near Byleth, every waking moment? He looks confused at the thought that he could have possibly, even accidentally implied that he didn't want to be with Byleth.
Though as he hears him out, he feels his eye widen in surprise, before his gaze softens and he moves his hands through Byleth's hair before moving in close and pressing his lips to his forehead. He lingers there, quiet and warmed by what he's saying- there's little in this world that he wouldn't do for this man before him, and he inhales his scent before replying: ]
You are my family and forever will be. I want to wake up every day to your beautiful smile, to begin my day seeing you and ending it with you. What you've given me, Byleth, is life.
[ He moves his kiss to his cheeks, lifting Byleth's face to make him look at him firmly. ]
I don't want to spend a moment away from you, my beloved. I know... I haven't the right to be jealous or upset here. This isn't the place for it, and it will forever challenge us. But you...
[ He pushes their foreheads together now, the night's chill feeling like nothing against the warmth of Byleth being this close to him. The fire in him is enough to brand itself in his very spirit, and he adds— ]
If I could have one selfish wish, it would be that you return home to me, just here. No matter who you find yourself with. And only while you're here- for when we return... when I seal our vows... I will never give myself to anyone but you until the end of my days.
[ It pains him to think of even the remotest possibility that it won't happen, and he pulls back enough to look into his eyes. ]
Why would you assume that I wanted to be alone here, when you'd broken my isolation and brought me back to the light before we even arrived here?
[ His hands release Dimitri's just so he can resume his embrace, tugging him back in and breathing in tandem with him. It feels so nice to hold him like this again, a feeling he never imagined himself becoming addicted to. But no one smells like him and no one is ever quite as warm. Maybe he needs to stop pretending he'll be fine without him if only three days of silence made it feel like whatever crest is holding his chest together had been suddenly torn out of him, leaving him to bleed out slowly.
He doesn't want to return to same despair and loneliness he felt after losing his father, but the first to rush by his side and give him comfort had been Dimitri. No one else makes him feel more alive and more human than him. ]
I was being careful, but it's not how I really felt. This is how I really feel.
[ He tightens his grip as if to emphasize his words and whatever other emotions that exist beyond what he can ever say to him. Hopefully, it will be enough this time to convince him he never wanted anything more than to stand by his side forever. ]
When we arrive home, I can show you this. I can show you all the other ways I feel for you.
[ His lips quirk at the vague attempt of being flirtatious, though he's still pretty terrible at it with his monotone and his deadpan expression. It doesn't help that Dimitri can be particularly thick-headed about other people's desires for him, making it something of a stroke of luck they even confessed to one another so soon after their arrival here. He'd have thought he would have to keep his own feelings locked up inside until Dimitri was a bit more mature in that area.
When he finally pulls away, he gives Dimitri's cape a tug so he can start to follow him, the crowds all but gone by now. A part of him thinks he should just let him rest, but maybe it's fine to be selfish a little more often rather than give Dimitri so many wrong ideas and fill him with more doubt.
Eventually, Dimitri will have to get it in his head that he loves him. ]
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[ Had he not made it more than obvious he wanted to be near Byleth, every waking moment? He looks confused at the thought that he could have possibly, even accidentally implied that he didn't want to be with Byleth.
Though as he hears him out, he feels his eye widen in surprise, before his gaze softens and he moves his hands through Byleth's hair before moving in close and pressing his lips to his forehead. He lingers there, quiet and warmed by what he's saying- there's little in this world that he wouldn't do for this man before him, and he inhales his scent before replying: ]
You are my family and forever will be. I want to wake up every day to your beautiful smile, to begin my day seeing you and ending it with you. What you've given me, Byleth, is life.
[ He moves his kiss to his cheeks, lifting Byleth's face to make him look at him firmly. ]
I don't want to spend a moment away from you, my beloved. I know... I haven't the right to be jealous or upset here. This isn't the place for it, and it will forever challenge us. But you...
[ He pushes their foreheads together now, the night's chill feeling like nothing against the warmth of Byleth being this close to him. The fire in him is enough to brand itself in his very spirit, and he adds— ]
If I could have one selfish wish, it would be that you return home to me, just here. No matter who you find yourself with. And only while you're here- for when we return... when I seal our vows... I will never give myself to anyone but you until the end of my days.
[ It pains him to think of even the remotest possibility that it won't happen, and he pulls back enough to look into his eyes. ]
Why would you assume that I wanted to be alone here, when you'd broken my isolation and brought me back to the light before we even arrived here?
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He doesn't want to return to same despair and loneliness he felt after losing his father, but the first to rush by his side and give him comfort had been Dimitri. No one else makes him feel more alive and more human than him. ]
I was being careful, but it's not how I really felt. This is how I really feel.
[ He tightens his grip as if to emphasize his words and whatever other emotions that exist beyond what he can ever say to him. Hopefully, it will be enough this time to convince him he never wanted anything more than to stand by his side forever. ]
When we arrive home, I can show you this. I can show you all the other ways I feel for you.
[ His lips quirk at the vague attempt of being flirtatious, though he's still pretty terrible at it with his monotone and his deadpan expression. It doesn't help that Dimitri can be particularly thick-headed about other people's desires for him, making it something of a stroke of luck they even confessed to one another so soon after their arrival here. He'd have thought he would have to keep his own feelings locked up inside until Dimitri was a bit more mature in that area.
When he finally pulls away, he gives Dimitri's cape a tug so he can start to follow him, the crowds all but gone by now. A part of him thinks he should just let him rest, but maybe it's fine to be selfish a little more often rather than give Dimitri so many wrong ideas and fill him with more doubt.
Eventually, Dimitri will have to get it in his head that he loves him. ]