[ Felix can't deny that there are some darker feelings about the whole Rodrigue situation, and of Glenn too. He can't fault Dimitri for mourning the man's death though. And he tries not to let his weird lingering feelings of familial abandonment leak into things all that often. He has treated the "boar prince" with enough disdain without all that...
There absolutely should have been A+ ranks but that is what RP is for now Felix actively chose to support Dimitri, and he hopes that the other understands the significance of that choice. He hopes that his loyalty hasn't been questioned or, at least, is not questioned anymore. ]
I'm ... sorry, for not visiting.
[ Wait what. Yes, an apology, but don't expect him to repeat it. Seriously though, he and Dimitri are neighbors and Felix has still not put in enough effort. He does regret that. It's just ... yeah. Things have been embarrassing. He would like to see the kitties again too.
With a nod, he agrees to go walking with Dimitri. He's not sure how much of "what he's been doing" he wants to share, but ... ]
So you're aware she's here. [ He looks grim for a second. ] I met up with her.
[ He'd be surprised if Felix didn't have some unpleasant thoughts regarding that. It's not like they've been able to address any of it in a while..
But after everything they've been through, he does indeed realize how important it is that he doesn't let Felix down. Especially after all the pain he's caused him— knowing that he still supports him...
The apology alone, makes him still for a bit, feeling a rush of warmth swarming the base of his head and to his ears. To hear such comforting words from Felix isn't the norm, but he's afraid if he teases him too much, he'll storm off. He doesn't want that right now...
So he acknowledges if, quietly. ]
I am to blame as well. This place... it's been rather... busy. But that's why we must make up for it now, Felix.
[ He's quiet as Felix speaks, then, as they walk together to the park that the path from their building leads to. ]
.. as for Edelgard... I spoke to her. She seemed frightened, if hiding it well. She also told me she'd run into you and Sylvain.
[ He sighs, looking ahead of him. ]
She's from before any of her painful actions progressed. I do not wish to have her live in a constant state of fear while here. I assured her that there would be no more threats to her from us.
[ He pauses, looking over at Felix with a softer look. ]
We don't need to have conflict here, even if it doesn't erase the years of sadness we endured. But this place is not to be our judgment ground. Or hers.
[ He hopes Felix understands. ]
... it also seems as though she has her own Professor. One that did not choose to stay with us... and one that is not a man.
[ And he's more confused about that. ]
Our world makes even less sense lately, doesn't it?
[ They basically haven't addressed it at all, but it's fine. The war is over, that's what actually matters.
He will most definitely storm off if Dimitri tries to tease him, so he makes a wise decision in not mentioning it out loud. Now that Felix has said his apology, he is good to move on from such sentimental topics ... ]
I promised her I would not draw my weapon.
[ So like, he definitely feels like he put in a valiant effort at their meeting. However, she thought that she and Felix could work together toward a common goal and that he's not quite on board with just yet. Even if she is from a time before she's a complete witch, he still feels that doesn't pardon her.
She was thinking about being a complete witch long before any of them even realized it, after all. ]
I won't forgive her for what she's done.
[ To Dimitri, specifically. ]
But I've been civil.
[ He puts his hands up, shrugging his shoulders a bit. Basically, he's not sure what else he can offer on that front. As for the professor ... yeah he has also already met that one. And touched her boob. ]
I don't know how the female one can be the same professor and have sided with her, but. I don't see a reason to make an enemy of her here either. If our professor is fine with her presence then it's no matter.
[ Having time to healthily discuss unhealthy topics? Not in their Fhirdiad, apparently.
To be fair, had Edelgard made that offer of him, he'd have refused too- and might never agree to it, regardless of how he feels now. Expecting it of Felix is even more far-fetched- though somewhere deep down, he knows that it's likely Felix would have turned away from him if he'd fallen too far. And he wouldn't have blamed him for it, either.
But he's glad... this Felix stayed. That he kept some faith in him, and that Byleth- their Byleth, was able to bring him back before he fell too far.
As they step into the park, Dimitri glances to his side where he can see Felix, the way he looks and carries himself- the way he's looking far gentler than his usual guarded manner. He always found Felix worth admiring, even if he carried immense disdain for him, but...
Right now, it's a bit difficult to not be overly aware of how his scent is incredibly palpable and his heat...
He catches himself, turning to look ahead as they stop by the fountain, and he gives it a look-over before speaking again- ]
It's the best we can do, my friend.
[ He wants to touch some boob too but he's not thinking of it right now. After a moment's silence, he turns to face Felix properly. ]
How has this place been treating you? You- [ He holds up a hand- ] - needn't tell me about what makes you uncomfortable. The moons have done some strange things to our selves...
[ His hand then moves to settle on Felix's shoulder. ]
But if there is aught that has troubled you- I don't want you to have to carry the burden alone, Felix. As your friend- more than as a king, I'd hope for you to rely on me.
[ He meets his gaze firmly. ]
Will you allow me to ask this selfish request of you?
At some other time and place, maybe he would have agreed to go with Edelgard. He doesn't know about any alternate self that might have. He can't imagine going against Dimitri at this point, but maybe at some point it had been possible. Dimitri will just have to live with the fact that he's stuck with Felix and Felix will even go so far as to defend Dimitri's honor.
Either he's unaware of Dimitri's gaze on him, or he's pretending he doesn't notice how intense it is. The tips of his ears color slightly but that's the only betrayal of his thoughts. He manages to keep his cheeks a regular human color. He lifts his hands up in a shrug. ]
Suppose so.
[ There really is very little they can do about it at this point, but try and coexist without too much stress or violence. Sure, that's fine.
As he's asked about how this place has treated him, his cheeks do color. It's definitely not something he wants to discuss. Not with anyone. Even telling Sylvain about it is a giant pain in Felix's neck. He opens his mouth to tell Dimitri to stop asking about it, but no sound comes out as the man's hand lands on his shoulder. ]
Hmph. [ He blows hot air out his nose. ] You don't have to say something like that. Obviously it's the same for me.
[ He's already pledged his life to Dimitri. Maybe he'll die with Sylvain but he'll die for his king, and friend. But he sighs, meeting that gaze and feeling how serious Dimitri actually is about it. Maybe he can tone the tsun down a little bit. ]
[ That makes his gaze grow a little gentler, and he turns so that he can fully face Felix. Honestly, it's a bit hard to not... Felix has become an astoundingly strapping young warrior, which is a far cry from how cute and squishy he used to be as a child. Always following Sylvain around and crying when he couldn't get his attention...
The thought makes him smile just a bit, and he lifts his gaze to him, meeting Felix's squarely. ]
Then... answer me this, Felix. You aren't.. unhappy here, are you?
[ Because if there is anything making him uncomfortable or unhappy, he'd like to hear it. He doesn't want to cast a blind eye to his ... future? Or present Duke... any more than he doesn't want to look away from his Margrave.
He's not sure how well Felix will be taking to the position, or Sylvain for that matter— but as his most trusted and loyal friends... he cannot be ignorant or trapped in his own head anymore. ]
[ One mention of how squishy he used to be and this sentimental outing is over and done with forever, Dimitri.
That aside, Felix does take a moment to ponder the question, a very light frown stitching into his brow. Is he unhappy? He's not thrilled honestly, but it's not like he's dying either. Even with the awful moon cycles, he's pretty well taken care of. By Sylvain or by strangers who won't ask questions or tease him. ]
I'd rather be home.
[ They have a lot of work to do, after all. He was never really prepared to be Duke Fraldarius, but he'll take the role seriously now that he has it. Or will have it. ]
Do you think I couldn't handle it if someone was "unkind"? I'm fine.
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There absolutely should have been A+ ranks but that is what RP is for nowFelix actively chose to support Dimitri, and he hopes that the other understands the significance of that choice. He hopes that his loyalty hasn't been questioned or, at least, is not questioned anymore. ]I'm ... sorry, for not visiting.
[ Wait what. Yes, an apology, but don't expect him to repeat it. Seriously though, he and Dimitri are neighbors and Felix has still not put in enough effort. He does regret that. It's just ... yeah. Things have been embarrassing. He would like to see the kitties again too.
With a nod, he agrees to go walking with Dimitri. He's not sure how much of "what he's been doing" he wants to share, but ... ]
So you're aware she's here. [ He looks grim for a second. ] I met up with her.
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But after everything they've been through, he does indeed realize how important it is that he doesn't let Felix down. Especially after all the pain he's caused him— knowing that he still supports him...
The apology alone, makes him still for a bit, feeling a rush of warmth swarming the base of his head and to his ears. To hear such comforting words from Felix isn't the norm, but he's afraid if he teases him too much, he'll storm off. He doesn't want that right now...
So he acknowledges if, quietly. ]
I am to blame as well. This place... it's been rather... busy. But that's why we must make up for it now, Felix.
[ He's quiet as Felix speaks, then, as they walk together to the park that the path from their building leads to. ]
.. as for Edelgard... I spoke to her. She seemed frightened, if hiding it well. She also told me she'd run into you and Sylvain.
[ He sighs, looking ahead of him. ]
She's from before any of her painful actions progressed. I do not wish to have her live in a constant state of fear while here. I assured her that there would be no more threats to her from us.
[ He pauses, looking over at Felix with a softer look. ]
We don't need to have conflict here, even if it doesn't erase the years of sadness we endured. But this place is not to be our judgment ground. Or hers.
[ He hopes Felix understands. ]
... it also seems as though she has her own Professor. One that did not choose to stay with us... and one that is not a man.
[ And he's more confused about that. ]
Our world makes even less sense lately, doesn't it?
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He will most definitely storm off if Dimitri tries to tease him, so he makes a wise decision in not mentioning it out loud. Now that Felix has said his apology, he is good to move on from such sentimental topics ... ]
I promised her I would not draw my weapon.
[ So like, he definitely feels like he put in a valiant effort at their meeting. However, she thought that she and Felix could work together toward a common goal and that he's not quite on board with just yet. Even if she is from a time before she's a complete witch, he still feels that doesn't pardon her.
She was thinking about being a complete witch long before any of them even realized it, after all. ]
I won't forgive her for what she's done.
[ To Dimitri, specifically. ]
But I've been civil.
[ He puts his hands up, shrugging his shoulders a bit. Basically, he's not sure what else he can offer on that front. As for the professor ... yeah he has also already met that one. And touched her boob. ]
I don't know how the female one can be the same professor and have sided with her, but. I don't see a reason to make an enemy of her here either. If our professor is fine with her presence then it's no matter.
[ a small sigh, and a nod. ]
Nothing about any of this makes a lot of sense.
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To be fair, had Edelgard made that offer of him, he'd have refused too- and might never agree to it, regardless of how he feels now. Expecting it of Felix is even more far-fetched- though somewhere deep down, he knows that it's likely Felix would have turned away from him if he'd fallen too far. And he wouldn't have blamed him for it, either.
But he's glad... this Felix stayed. That he kept some faith in him, and that Byleth- their Byleth, was able to bring him back before he fell too far.
As they step into the park, Dimitri glances to his side where he can see Felix, the way he looks and carries himself- the way he's looking far gentler than his usual guarded manner. He always found Felix worth admiring, even if he carried immense disdain for him, but...
Right now, it's a bit difficult to not be overly aware of how his scent is incredibly palpable and his heat...
He catches himself, turning to look ahead as they stop by the fountain, and he gives it a look-over before speaking again- ]
It's the best we can do, my friend.
[ He wants to touch some boob too but he's not thinking of it right now. After a moment's silence, he turns to face Felix properly. ]
How has this place been treating you? You- [ He holds up a hand- ] - needn't tell me about what makes you uncomfortable. The moons have done some strange things to our selves...
[ His hand then moves to settle on Felix's shoulder. ]
But if there is aught that has troubled you- I don't want you to have to carry the burden alone, Felix. As your friend- more than as a king, I'd hope for you to rely on me.
[ He meets his gaze firmly. ]
Will you allow me to ask this selfish request of you?
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At some other time and place, maybe he would have agreed to go with Edelgard. He doesn't know about any alternate self that might have. He can't imagine going against Dimitri at this point, but maybe at some point it had been possible. Dimitri will just have to live with the fact that he's stuck with Felix and Felix will even go so far as to defend Dimitri's honor.
Either he's unaware of Dimitri's gaze on him, or he's pretending he doesn't notice how intense it is. The tips of his ears color slightly but that's the only betrayal of his thoughts. He manages to keep his cheeks a regular human color. He lifts his hands up in a shrug. ]
Suppose so.
[ There really is very little they can do about it at this point, but try and coexist without too much stress or violence. Sure, that's fine.
As he's asked about how this place has treated him, his cheeks do color. It's definitely not something he wants to discuss. Not with anyone. Even telling Sylvain about it is a giant pain in Felix's neck. He opens his mouth to tell Dimitri to stop asking about it, but no sound comes out as the man's hand lands on his shoulder. ]
Hmph. [ He blows hot air out his nose. ] You don't have to say something like that. Obviously it's the same for me.
[ He's already pledged his life to Dimitri. Maybe he'll die with Sylvain but he'll die for his king, and friend. But he sighs, meeting that gaze and feeling how serious Dimitri actually is about it. Maybe he can tone the tsun down a little bit. ]
Fine. But you asked for this.
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The thought makes him smile just a bit, and he lifts his gaze to him, meeting Felix's squarely. ]
Then... answer me this, Felix. You aren't.. unhappy here, are you?
[ Because if there is anything making him uncomfortable or unhappy, he'd like to hear it. He doesn't want to cast a blind eye to his ... future? Or present Duke... any more than he doesn't want to look away from his Margrave.
He's not sure how well Felix will be taking to the position, or Sylvain for that matter— but as his most trusted and loyal friends... he cannot be ignorant or trapped in his own head anymore. ]
Has anyone been unkind to you?
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That aside, Felix does take a moment to ponder the question, a very light frown stitching into his brow. Is he unhappy? He's not thrilled honestly, but it's not like he's dying either. Even with the awful moon cycles, he's pretty well taken care of. By Sylvain or by strangers who won't ask questions or tease him. ]
I'd rather be home.
[ They have a lot of work to do, after all. He was never really prepared to be Duke Fraldarius, but he'll take the role seriously now that he has it. Or will have it. ]
Do you think I couldn't handle it if someone was "unkind"? I'm fine.